2016

Well another year has come and gone.  2015 flew by.  I failed on so many different levels this year.  I wanted to update this blog more - fail.  I wanted to lose weight - fail.  I wanted to have a new job - fail.  I wanted to be a better wife - fail.  I wanted to be a better mother - fail. 

Wow.... so many failures this year. 
1 - I tried so hard to update the blog this year.  It is part of our families history.  It's my way of knowing what is going on so I don't forget. 
2 - Losing weight is always a battle.  I give up after just a few days.  I love food and sitting around way too much.
3 - I've applied at so many different places.  I've interviewed at so many different places.  It is so depressing.  I'm so tired of hearing "You're a good candidate, but...".  It is so frustrating.
4 - I failed at being a better wife.  I tried to be unselfish, but I failed.  I tried to give more, but I failed.
5 - I failed at being a better mom.  I wanted to yell less.  I wanted to play more.  I wanted to give more.

This coming year, 2016 will be better. 
1 - I will try to keep this blog updated.  It's important to perserve the memories.
2 - My brother and I are losing weight together.  Hopefully by the end of the year I will meet my 50lb loss goal.
3 - I will find another job.  I have to find another job.  My current job comes to an end sometime in January.  I know there is something out there for me.  I will not give up.

These two are the most important.
1 - I will be a better wife.  I will not hold grudges.  I will not be so selfish.  I will give of myself more.  I will spend more time being with my husband.
2 - I will be a better mom.  I will yell less, have more patience, and play a little more.

Being a wife and mother at the same time is hard.  It is always a balancing act between your husband and your children.  It's also a balancing act when you add husband, children, and a job search on top of that.  I'm stressed out constantly.  I feel like I'm all alone sometimes.  I feel like I'm the one who is carrying the weight of the house on my shoulders.  It's hard, so very hard.  I need to learn how to communicate and ask for help more.  I need to learn to accept that not everything is going to go the way I want it to go. 

This year will be a year of change.  I will be a better wife and a better mother.  I will lose weight and have a better job.  I will keep up with this blog.

Happy New Year to everyone of you!